Nirvana. Everyone’s searching for it right ? Well I know I am. And there’s been a fair bit of searching going on of late …
And in my search for heaven on earth, I find myself rotating Mr Kurt Cobain on my ipod.
Nirvana was the first band that I ever truly loved, and Kurt was definitely my first boy crush.I remember sitting around with my friends, we must have been 12 years old, watching Kurt belt out ”Where Did You Sleep Last Night” on the MTV Unplugged in New York video (yep that’s right kids, it was videos back then) and being completely mesmerized. We used to all go around to this girls house, who no-one really liked that much but had the video, and watch it from start to finish every weekend (No, there wasn’t much to do as a 12 year old in the suburbs of Perth).
My heart would always stop at the end of the song, when Kurt finally looks up, exhales and looks straight into the camera for a split second and you see his perfect ice blue eyes for what feels like the first time in the whole video. I’m pretty sure he was looking straight at me. Through me even.
What a scarily talented and disturbed man. Maybe even a genius?
Listening to Nirvana, definitely makes me feel like I’m getting closer to what I’m searching for.
I love Kurt. Always have. Always will. Hope he found his Nirvana in the end.
Peace & The Search
PS see the video for yourself here